Railing Codex

导航软件没有“stay”的信号，但只要下一导航动作路口没有转向指令，它的导航箭头就会一直“stay”在默认的前行状态里。
 
“stay”是持续的无指令状态，是对现状的无限拥有。
 
记忆中，在某段失去指令信号的连续的悲伤瞬间里，我意识到当下的我不再拥有进行寻找、控制和关联的能力，只能任头脑平静地晕眩，在绵密的粉末状的情绪中徒劳地寻找呼吸的作用，却被打扰，被不可抗的时间推着走走走。
 
我的感官在粉末中无限延展——行为发生在感知之后。
喜悦最先造访——喜悦是对一切情绪的预判的“是”的反馈，因此我很快又陷入失措。
线索消失。白色的粉末烧得更旺，我无法在任何一颗上停留。
 
我感到安全，高飞低走，天旋地转；我不再寻找悲伤的感觉。
 
后来想这大概就是极乐世界——我在极乐世界短暂停留，对悲伤无限拥有。

Navigation apps do not have a symbol for “stay,” but as long as the next command doesn’t involve a turn, the arrow does stay in place, and points ahead. 
To “stay” is a prolonged state, without commands. It denotes an ultimate ownership of the present. 
I remember a prolonged moment of sadness, where I’d lost all signal and direction. I realized that my present self could no longer search, control, or relate. I let my mind calmly spin, seeking the purpose of breathing amongst the dense powder of my crushed emotions, in vain. My effort was interrupted, however, and I was pushed on, on and onwards by inexorable time. 
My senses extended infinitely in this powder—action happened after perception. 
Joy made a first visit—but joy presumes an affirmative response, a “yes” to every emotion, and I quickly fell back into panic.
The clue vanished. The white powder burned even more vigorously, and I could not linger on any of its particles. 
I was feeling safe. I flew high, crawled low, and the world spun me into a vertigo. I gave up seeking the feeling of sadness.
Later, I realized that was probably paradise—I made a brief stay in the Elysium; I was the ultimate owner of sadness. 